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Hmmm, to post after over a year always seems so stupid to me...but alas that is how it usually works out.

And as of today I have royally fucked my sleep schedule. After work around 7:30 I fell asleep, and didn't wake up until 1 am. SO here I am quite awake and will remain so for many hours.

In other news I just had a really amazing sandwich...that is all.

Well, it's about 6 in the morning, but I have been awake for a while now!
I had to get up at 4 in the morning to take my meds. And for those that don't know...the meds are for the two wisdom teeth I had removed Friday...ouch.
Well as some of you probably know for yourselves, drugged sleep is the best, I have the Craziest dreams...which is what brings me here now, please enjoy! ^_^ <3

*Crazy wavy dream effect*
It starts out Myself, Colleen, Cassondra, and Matt, we are all dressed up prom style, only not. None of us were in our Prom garb. I myself was in Red, I never wear Red xP...moving on. So the four of us get to "The School" ( ...an abandon and rumored haunted School that Colleen and I went to) So I guess the theme for this Prom was Halloween or something. Well anyways we get inside and the whole thing is sectioned off so that the four of us have like a private VIP type room. When we get in there, we find couches, Videogames, popcorn, and candy, Yay! Colleen and Matt get to the videogames first so Cassondra and I check out the candy...the have "White Chocolate Twizzlers"...which I am pretty damn sure don't exsist, but are otherwise very delicious xD. So I start shoving as many as I can into my purse....which is possible because that shit is pulling a Harry Potter and just keeps re-filling. Then I decide I want to try to scare Colleen and Matt so I start crawling behind couches to get to their side of the room...well as it only happens in dreams, a few moments of crawling and I was in some other room completely, still behind couches however. From listening to voices I find out that it's Cory Demyers and Sean Biggerstaff (Wtf?)...Which in it's self is really fucking random. So I jump from behind the couch and apparently scare Cory out of his mind, and he flees from the room. Then Sean looks at me and is like "I thought he'd never leave *makes eyebrows at me*"

Then I woke up and immediately took more medicine!
xP <3333

Wow, long time no post!
I figured I would start remedying that...(but who knows how long I'll keep it up! xP)
So what is new in the world of me, well...an interesting amount to say the least!

My mom (for those of you who have had the pleasure...yeah right) has been at an all time bitch high lately! She has been working a lot, which can stress anyone, not to mention she just (like 7 months ago *rolls eyes*)broke up with a long time boyfriend.
Now, I was sympathetic for the first couple of months, but now she is dating again, going out to dinner like 2 nights a week, and still feeling depressed about this guy it is starting to get a little old.

OKay enough on that subject I have talked FAR too much about it this evening, and it is doing nothing to improve my mood!

So what to talk about now, well I could mention my two lovely best friends...but chances are they are the only two reading anyways! So I guess, just know you guys rock! <333

....hmmm *think happy thoughts* Well I started a new game this weekend, and I enjoyed it a rather large amount. It's called "Fire Emblem" I played probably 5 hours total or so, and I look forward to playing again...since I think my Guitar Hero playing is getting on Colleen's nerves! xD <3

Oh and Em, if you read this...get me sick and I will have to cut out your throat!
love ya little sister kthnxbi <3


P.S.
Mom,
I fed the cat your crab legs.
He was hungry. I'm not sorry.
<333

I am so excited, the day is just started and already it is amazing, since 9 I have been hanging out with my Dad, which is really great. I miss him so much I can't stand it!
So for the last couple hours we have been listening to music and discussing it!
...we also ventured into such topics as:
-After Life
-Religion
-What killed the Dinosaurs
-Atlantis
-More intelligent Life forms
-...& Bob Dylan!

I love my Dad!
He is my favorite person in this world!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Some interesting news found me today!
Turns out my Grandmother is in the hospital, she had a heartattack last night.
She had to have open heart surgery, and right now she is still in recovery.
But I think what makes this news even more awful, is the fact that I have been putting off visiting her for a while now. She had some money for me, and I never got over there to see her. I feel so awful! So I am back at home in the mean time, to help my mom out and to keep the chaos down.
Best of luck I hope!

I find crushes to be an odd little addition to life...but even more odd I find is the dreams you have of said "crush"!

I mean I have never been one to have "fun" dreams as we will call them here,and when I do chance upon one, on the rare occasion, they tend to be with people I would least expect to make that kind of an appearance, let alone any appearance at all.

Now I haven't SERIOUSLY crushed on anyone in awhile, but the other night a minor crush of mine chanced his way into a dream of mine....and well DAMN, I won't be forgetting this one anytime soon!

Just thought I'd share!
XD <3

Wow haven't even thought about posting here in ages...but WTH!

So today I went shopping with Colleen and her mom for new clothes, that was going okay for a bit, but damn all it reminded me of all day was the fact that shopping with my mom has always been sooo much different. I mean as much as my mom and I don't get along, we tend to put that all aside and we actually enjoy each other while we are shopping. It's like an unwritten rule for the two of us, that we are going to make the very best of the day...and well, we do!
And granted even though she couldn't really spend too much on me, she always made me really happy when she would give me that kind of attention. Well I guess what I'm getting at is...just like everyone I know, I wanna be someone's favorite!

Things to bitch about later

*Valentine's Day
*Tanning
*Melissa
*Cruise
*Devyn

So yeah, I totally got a new computer today, and I am so farking excited.

I hate the fucking state of Michigan in the winter, not for the weather...I mean I do hate it, but that's not what this rant is about.
This rant is about how no one can fucking be happy in the winter. We haven't seen the sun in like four months so everyone just pisses someone else off.

There is way too much drama in this state, and truth be told I had to hear that from an outsider. Devyn lives in Arizona, and he can't believe some of the things I bitch to him about, and everytime I sit there and think "Is it seriously just this state with problems." I don't know maybe the drama only surrounds me and my friends. Someone ( no names to protect the innocent) decided they would take it upon themselves to fuck up my relationship with Devyn. I won't go into detail tonight, because it's 4am and I am soo tired, but this will put it into perspective. If you know me, then you know how calm, cool, and collected I am. Sure I'm a little crazy sometimes, but I've got my shit together. Well, this inccident had me shaking I was so pissed when I found out, and the person I was mad at didn't have the balls to talk to me. They actually skipped class they didn't want to talk to me that bad.

I am so farking tired right now, or I would continue my rant...
Anyway Good Night all!
*kisses*

So for those of you that don't know...I totally have like the hawtest boy friend in the entire god damn world.

Now I don't say that to be mean, I'm sure your boyfriends are cute too, but I gotta brag about my hunny.

...and before you ask you don't know him, but once I post a pic of him for you, you'll wish you did. :heart:

Well that was fun XD

So I felt the ungodly urgue to post in here.

...So love to all and kisses all around.

So, like I really hate the holidays. All I get from them is several hours of either awkward silence, or useless conversation. They all ask me how I'm doing, and dare I say "bad" 'cause that would just lead to more useless conversations. They all think I am this prodigy genius child then every year my mom tells them my grades(mostly bad. This has been happening at least as long as I have been in High School probably longer. Not to mention the cut off for the "kids table" this year just happens to be at me. What kind of bull shit is that anyway. Oh well gotta go do the family thing. Talk to you later, if I'm not in prison for murder!!! <3<3<3

Sorry just a quiz...I haven't done one in a while.

You scored as Batman, the Dark Knight. As the Dark Knight of Gotham, Batman is a vigilante who deals out his own brand of justice to the criminals and corrupt of the city. He follows his own code and is often misunderstood. He has few friends or allies, but finds comfort in his cause. </td> Batman, the Dark Knight 92% Indiana Jones 88% The Amazing Spider-Man 79% Lara Croft 75% Neo, the "One" 71% Captain Jack Sparrow 67% El Zorro 67% The Terminator 63% William Wallace 42% James Bond, Agent 007 42% Maximus 29% Which Action Hero Would You Be? v. 2.0 created with QuizFarm.com

So here I am on Melissa's computer, a strawberry daiquiri in hand and someones sweet ass on my mind. I swear how does he not want to snog himself silly when ever he looks in the mirror. I have had far too much to drink this evening so sorry for any spelling errors. I have had about half a pint of Absolute, a mike's, and now this cooler thing, and I'm still not drunk enough. I need someone to talk to and this is of course the first place I look when ever I feel sad. I hope I forget this night, because I've made far too, much of a fool of myself to face some of these people again on Monday. Oh fuckin' well I'll get over it. Obviously I'm not quite there 'cause I'm still typing just fine. I swear to god he's so sexy it should be illegal. Now I just wish I could tell him that. ~le sigh~ Oh well I Guess that will end my ranting for the evening. So I leave you with this, touch him and I kill you. kthxbi!!!

A personal note before we begin: Anything in the(~*~)categories can be ignored if you have no desire to read about my emotional flash floods.
kthxbi

~*~I can't take it any more!!!! How can a stupid little crush put me in such a miserable mood. All I did was go on Gaia try to change his outfit and where does it get me...crying in the shower. If you really want to know what this is all about you can email me.
--Well, before all of ^that shit happened I was having a good day. I went to lunch with my friends, went to a movie with my sisters and my mom was in a really good mood today. Speaking of the mood my mom was in, she's in a good/indifferent mood and it makes me feel so guilty you have no clue. She isn't doing it on purpose, but it affects me none the less.

~*~I feel stupid for being so naive. He doesn't think of me like that, and probably never will. I hold on to empty hopes, for someone who makes me miserable without even knowing that they are doing it.

So here it goes another stab at my emoness shining through.

Colleen: I'm not entirely sure you understand just how important you are in my crazy life. I myself have just made a major discovery in that aspect infact. To explain, today after you left Doug's house I felt almost as ignored as I did the day before when we were at Doug's uncle's house. No one would talk to me , or even notice that I had said anything. Melissa and Doug too wrapped up in themselves to notice Andrew using a knife to sharpen a pencil and blow the shavings onto the floor. I sat there and watched this go on for a while and then I said quite loudly "I think I'm gonna head out now guys, I gotta get home." And none of them even looked up til I was in the kitchen when I heard Doug say " Hey, you leavin'?" So I just thought I would just let you know just how awesome you are and I hope I can brighten your day even half as much as you brighten mine. Love you much.

...On a side note Matt called me today and I was sooo excited that someone wanted to actually talk to me that I got kinda hyper. Well, after talkin' to him for a while it turns out all he really wanted to talk about was Melissa. Which was the real icing on the cake.

I'm rather surprisingly not so Emo tonight. I wonder why?
Anyway moving on, so I really need to goto bed right now, but I'm just so wide awake I don't think I can. I'm sure I'll regret it tomorrow. I've just started a project that was due today, now everyone applaued my amazing procrastination ability. ~le sigh~ procrastinating makes me hate myself, makes me feel like I should be a better person than this, Oh well I'll deal. So, I rather like the newly released Gaia items, there are just too many outfit possibilities it makes my head hurt. So I hungout with my very bestest friend today, we haven't been friends for very long, but already she definately know my better than my own parents. I love it when we have the exact same thoughts and we finish each other sentences word for word. Apparently, I have the same effect on Andrew, just not to quite the same magnitude.

Spider-man~
I want my Christmas present now!!!!
'Cause Santa Clause is my favorite super hero

Much love <3 <3 <3

-A girl asked a boy if she was pretty.
+He said no.
-She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever.
+He said no.
-She then asked him if he would cry if she walked away.
+He again said no.
-She had heard too much.
-She needed to leave.
-As she walked away, he grabbed her arm and told her to stay, he said,
+"You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever. I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would die."

I read this, and wanted to cry. I swear I am to damn lonely. I get so fuckin' Emo at night. I hungout with Andrew, Colleen, Eric, Melissa, and Doug today. All six of us were all laying on the same couch.Melissa snuggling Doug, and Andrew and Eric laying acrossed Colleen, and I. It was a lot of fun...and I'm just sooo glad that Andrew wasn't being a jerk to Melissa today. I'm so pathetic at night, I annoy myself. I get all sappy and watch Romance movie, no I don't mean porn...all the time, lol.
I need a fuckin' boyfriend, I swear to god (sorry Doug).
I have all these stupid thoughts I go from being really happy to real depressed in the matter of about 2 seconds, for example
My thought process:
~This blanket smells like Andrew
~Doug and Melissa are quite the new item
~I want to go to church with Andrew
~I think about Andrew too much
~I wish Eric's girl friend was a bitch, so Eric would break up with her
~Then of course he would go out with Colleen
~Andrew, Andrew, Andrew, Andrew

More Quizzes as usual:

If LJ Were a High School by Karen_Walker
Username
Your Status	FreshmanSophomoreJuniorSeniorEnglish TeacherHistory TeacherMath TeacherScience TeacherChoir DirectorGym TeacherPrincipalSchool Secretary
Lunch Lady	shiarrhian
Head Cheerleader	antuulien
Quarterback	cielo_verde
Prom Queen	col_o_eenie
Gang Member	bitemysnatch
Band Geek	deadlovechild
Theatre Geek	amadeus_amadeus
Chess Club Captain	marooned_dreams
Loner Goth Kid	turbidity
Class Clown	ladymeltintalle
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PERSONALITY RATE! by dumb_kid
Last Name
Color
Best Quality	Loyal
Worst Quality	Your a Poser
Fear	Getting Stepped on by elephants
Personality Rate	six
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Your Superhero Persona by couplandesque
Your Name
Superhero Name	Emo Kid
Super Power	Severe Mood Swings
Enemy	The Ex-Girlfriend
Mode Of Transportation	Unicycle
Weapon	Attack Gerbils
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Sweet Jesus, I don't even know when the last time I posted here was. I guess I think of this site only when I'm rather depressed. So perhaps I will, make it a normal thing to post at least once a week. Yeah Right, I almost garentee I won't be back for a while.

Moving on, So today, I got to see my sister, whom I haven't seen in almost two years. I also saw my dad whom I haven't seen in almost two months. So that was pretty cool, but I was really really sad once they left.

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Amanda in five years

Occupation: Part Time Politician

Prized possession: An intravenous soup ladle.

Favourite film: Legally Blonde 4: From Russia with Blonde

Age difference: Five years older.

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What Kind Of Anime Fairy Are You?::anime girl pics:: by angel_drifter
Name/Username:
Current Feelings:
Favorite Place:
What You Look Like:
Where Can You Be Found:	Singing A Lullaby To A Human Child
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You can sense lies. Whenever you're involved in a
conversation, or even eavesdropping on one, you
can sense whenever someone there is lying.
This can work as a benefit many times, but it
may also hurt you.


If you had a 6th sense, what would it be? (pics)
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Your an evil queen. You only care for yourself
nothing more. Your cunning and everyone in your
kingdom fears you. You know you need a kingdom
to stay being a queen so you still try your
best to keep everyone on your side still. You
are very powerful. Nobody will ever step up to
you.
Your King has to be just as evil and dark. He has
to agree with what you say or he's out the
door. He has to be just as cunning as you.
Name: Rin means cold or ice.


Are You A Princess Or A Queen? (Beautiful pictures with good details and 8 diferent results)
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You are a nature loving anime girl.You love all
types of animals and care for them.You are a
calm person and loves to have people around.You
love to be outside just admiring your
surroundings and playing with the animals that
are around.Now just if you keep loving the
nature pretty soon everyone is going to copy
you maybe i'm really not sure.But do what you
do best and it will soon pay off ^_^


If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
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